Rained in

Having had all my grand plans on doing a long ride this morning been derailed by rain, here I am trapped in my room with nowhere to go, and facing the prospect of another home cooked meal.

Good thing I managed to get some reading material from Periplus yesterday. Which reminds me... While catching up with a couple of old friends (read: exchange gossip. LOL), I was shocked to learn that one of our mutual friend is now sitting in the slammer. WTF! Sometimes I can't quite comprehend what compels people to push the limits to that point and take such a gamble with doing things that they well know they shouldn't be. But then again...

A cloud above my head

Don't you sometimes feel as if there is a dark cloud hovering just above your head, ever ready to unleash a thunderstorm of epic proportions onto you. For yesterday's ride, I managed to outrun that cloud, an actual one, not the imagined one. Only to have it unleash its fury just bare meters away from home as a reminder to nature's almighty power over physical constructs like us.

What does the above have to do with anything? Well, just thought it was kind of an odd reflection of what has transpired in my otherwise monotonous life of late. Just when I thought I had outrun the dark cloud above me, I had seemingly run into another. One that seemingly has a silver lining, despite the immense odds stacked.

Well... I'm a sucker for bad odds and punishment. :P Bring it on!

Secret

Wouldn't it be nice if we could say all that we want to say to other people without it being judged or forming any sort of prejudice?

To open up entirely to that person, leaving no skeletons hanging in the closet. For that person to accept you as you are. Doesn't come easy to some people I suppose, by way of character or conditioning, to be guarded by nature.

But.. Ssssh. It's a secret. And maybe that's what gives the whole process of getting to truly know someone a certain amount of mysteriousness and allure.

Changes

Yep, I've returned to blogging at really odd hours as I crawled out of bed at 3am to finish up a paper which I had no inspiration to write last night.

Over the course of the past 2 weeks, I seem to have found myself changing, albeit slightly, in my attitude towards certain things as those familiar yet foreign feelings take control of me. Suddenly, there it is again. Of course I am no fool to expect that things would remain in a state of stasis forever, but it has certainly preoccupied a great portion of my thoughts of late...

As D said in his most recent blogpost, timing is everything. And well, perhaps he is right. I can only hope that this time I am in "in sync".

Emo virus going around

Away! Away!

A simple love

Friends who have been looking at my FB would probably know by now this song has been stuck in my head recently (along with some others... :P). As we grow older, it seems that love is not so simple anymore, lost are the purity and innocence of the love we knew when we were younger, a love that easily transcends all boundaries and difficulties. Is it that we become jaded and cynical over time as other considerations creep in when we have to make choices to love, or receive love. Can we strip away the superficial coverings? Will I? Will you? Will we? Discover a simple love again.

Jay fans... this is for you.

簡單愛

曲: 周杰倫
词: 徐若瑄


說不上為什麼
我變得很主動
若愛上一個人 / 什麼都會值得去做

我想大聲宣佈
對妳依依不捨
連隔壁鄰居都猜到我現在的感受

河邊 / 的風 / 在吹著頭髮/ 飄動
牽著 / 妳的/ 手一陣莫名/ 感動
我想帶妳回我的外婆家
一起 / 看著日落 / 一直到我們都睡著

我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開
愛能不能夠永遠單純沒有悲哀
我 想帶妳騎單車
我 想和妳看棒球
想這樣沒擔憂 唱著歌 一直走
我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開
愛可不可以簡簡單單沒有傷害
妳 靠著我的肩膀
妳 在我胸口睡著
像這樣的生活 我愛妳 妳愛我

想 簡！簡！單！單！ 愛

想 簡！簡！單！單！ 愛

18 again

After all the hustle and bustle leading up to my short hiatus back Singapore, and the event packed stay back home, and finally back here in Jogja again, I have at last found some time to myself to sit down and blog about some of the things happening in the past few weeks.

The 10 days seem to have flown by in the blink of an eye, and well... I would say it was nothing short of magical. Not so much the activities, but the people I was with, and newly met.

Perhaps age is catching up, but I certainly had not expected that such an emotion creep up on me and strike me with such force that I feel like I was 18 all over again. Even if it eventually turns out to be nothing, I am thankful for having it happen, making me feel alive again, letting me know that I had not completely closed off those corners of my mind and heart.